| Love SUCKS |
[Jun. 26th, 2006|06:47 pm] |
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| | DHT Lisen To Your Heart | ] |
I know alot of people think im turning emo and stuff it just sucks tho because i cant let this girl go i was in love with her. When your 15 your feeling and emotions are like the most powerful they will ever be , i let her in and loved her and cared for her and then she jsut shattered my heart .. IT SUCKS!!!! So let me tell you how this all went about ,,, This year alot happened with me like i lost my dad moved like 3 times my mom got a new boy friend and like the only one there for me during this time who actually understood me was her she took my heart made it warm again and i fell in love with her.. she replaced my emptyness of not having a father with love and i trusted her with everything.. I started trusted her and feelign for her more and more everyday in till i fell in love.. Yep so thats how it happened she like did so much for me and stuff and was always there and like i lvoed it i lvoed her i lvoed life .. but then one day she just like out of no where was gone left me with out rele even tellign em a reason like an hour before she left me she was telling me she loved me and we were fine.. and then she called me on my phone and next thing i new she wasnt there n e more and my heart lost this thing that had made it beat again and actually be ok. My heart wont let her go now it sucks so bad i cry everyday andi dont know what to do.. And now i find out that she still loves me and that her heart still wants me but she wont lisen to it like she is more un happy now then when we went out and she knows it but she just wont let me back in :-(... Like if her hearts nto happy then she will never be happy and me and her both know that thats whats wrong with her her heart still wants me but her brain doesnt... Welll ya so i guess ill jsut wait and be a confused young man in till she figures it out cuz right now im more confused then ever all i do is cry and cry and be sad all day i jsut dont know what to do.. so if u have any advice hit me up ... |
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[Jun. 23rd, 2006|01:43 pm] |
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I lie on the ground,
and stare into space,
the stars start to move,
into the shape of your face.
I see you there now,
looking down at me,
with that cute little smile,
that I like to see.
You say "close your eyes",
"tell me what you see",
I see only two people,
just you and me.
We're walking the shoreline,
with our feet getting wet,
the horizon turns pink,
as the sun starts to set.
We make love through the night,
on that white sandy shore,
then I hold you while thinking,
I could want nothing more.
Oh I wish I could be,
in that one special place,
as I lie on the ground,
and I stare into space...
The worst thing ever is being so close to the one you love but also so far away. I lvoe her now and i will always it just sucks it had to end so fast.. I miss the feelign of knowing ur mine and knowing u care and i just wish i could have one more day of you being mine because how it ended is jsut not right.. One more day is all i would need is to satisfy my heart and make me be able to let you go but in till i get that one last day i will will always love you nad wait no matter how long it take... |
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| umm?? |
[Jun. 22nd, 2006|08:18 pm] |
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| | home | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sad | ] |
TOday was very interesting and alot happened..I woke up around 11 and i htoguth it was going to be a good day but that soon changed very fast. I went on the computer for a while then i decided to call shante to wish her luck today in her tournament. It was going good then she decided to go ... so i said bye and hung up then like 10 min she called me back and then all went down hill she kept bugging me about how i hung upwhen she told me she wanted to go then we got in an arguement about something because i kinda how felt lately she has been jsut useing me cuz she know's i still lvoe her and care for her :( .. and she flipped out and then we got around to how we would be better with out each other in our lifes and she hung up on me then i called her back and was like if u hang up on me one more time im gone and she was like (totally made me feel like she didnt even care ) so i was like what ever and hung up and started crying then i went on her myspace and deleted my self from it becasue if she didnt care if i was in her life then y should i be right well thats what i was thinking.. Well then she sighned on AIM and we argued some more but hten i relized what m i thinking i cant live with out her in my life so i called her and apoligized and after a while we were ok again.. so then we got off the phone andi called alex.. We were bored so we decided to go to the gym it was fun we played basketball and i schooled that short little boy and we worked on our chest bi seps back and like neck then we left and walked to Wienersnitzel our what ever and ate then my mom picked us up and i found out im going to holluwood on sunday i was pretty excitied so ya i went home and me and alex jsut chilled and watched TV for a long time.. then we went and got panda express yummmmmmm. We ate that and then we watched pimp my ride because alex's sister was on it pretty cool huh.. Then shante was going to sign off the computer so i ask her to call me because i wanted to tell my best friend goodnight and stuff like she told me she was going to bed soon and stuff but i thought like in 20 min but she meant like right away so she called and was like goodnight so i was like what the heck and she was like u wanted me to call so ur not getting off the phone so i was like well i jsut wanted to tell u goodnight but she got mad because i wanted to tell me bestie goodnight and she said if i hang up she wont call me n e more so i went on and told her like all my feelign and she just ignored me and then said something to make me cry then i said something and accidently hung up so i doubt she will call me n e more :-(... but then i chilled with alex and after liek 2 hours i called marissa so im talkign to her nadi htink im going to bed soon so ya that was my day bye bye |
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